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2002-06-18 - 9:49 p.m. I was at training, and when I got home, I had a headache that could fell a horse. So I went to sleep instead of doing laundry. I'm going to run out of clothes soon, and I don't think, "I have no clothes!" is a good excuse to miss work, unfortunately. Since I still have the headache, and I'm bubbling over with incoherent Buffy-love from watching PG/WSWB (Fave line *ever*: "If they hurt Willow, I'll kill you." ::shivery Xander goodness::), I'll just let Stacey do all the work for me. *g* This round of blogger insider, I was matched with Stacey and here are his answers to my questions: 1. How much of "the real you" do you think people get from reading your blog? 2. What keeps your interest in someone else's blog? 3. Do you think we are all really only six clicks [degrees of separation] from each other on the internet? 4. I see you're a Star Trek fan. Which incarnation do you like best? 5. Do you believe Kirk and Spock were secretly lovers? 6. Star Trek or Star Wars? Why? 7. You've named your scooter. Ships, cars, bikes - men always name their vehicles. Why? 8. I see you live in Seattle. Have you been there long? If so, has it changed over the past ten years, first with the mainstreaming of "grunge" and then with the shift to boyband pop? I mean, did that whole run on the "Seattle sound" leave any permanent marks? I don't think I personally noticed those changes until Seattle started showing up on "Best Places To Live" polls in the mid 80's. Real estate prices started going up and there were some real pitched battles over just how much new development we could and should absorb. Then the "grunge" thing hit. I don't know if you've seen the movie "Hype," but all that was happening right around the time I started going out to see live music. I wasn't so much into the bands that "made it" as I was the ones you could still see every month for $5 at The Crocodile, The Central Tavern, The Off Ramp and RCKCNDY (Rockcandy). I look back on those days as bittersweet, because I was happy to see the local scene getting recognition for doing something cool. But then you got to witness firsthand the kind of cultural strip-mining that corporations do in their search for the Next Big Thing. The music got "packaged" to make it easier to sell and then it was everywhere! Hordes of carpetbaggers and wannabes from all over the country. And suddenly my friends who couldn't be arsed to listen to Soundgarden in '87 were raiding my record collection! And what about all that crap about "Generation X?" I'm glad that whole scene is over now. Anyway, that whole thing was far less frightening than the Invasion Of The Geeks during the Internet Boom. You had all these smart-assed kids who coded by day and trolled the clubs at night with lots of disposable cash. There was a time when most of the people I knew were fishermen, carpenters, construction workers, who were from around here. They were replaced by all these people from elsewhere with strange and esoteric jobs, complaining that Seattle didn't have this or that. But they seem to be on the way out too. I love it here. At most, I'd consider living in Portland or Vancouver but that about it. I hope I don't get priced out of my hometown... BTW-I am an admitted N'Sync fan-so there!
9. You mention you'd never go to Safeco Field for political reasons. Why is that? Are you normally a socially conscious consumer? Does it limit your sphere of...shopping?
10. Skinny Elvis or fat Elvis? So there you have it. Lots of interesting stuff. My answers will at some point be up in Stacey's blog, but I was late, so they're not there just yet. *g* Back to the regularly scheduled fannish whining tomorrow. Possibly with some Buffy thoughts. ~victoria [current mood: headachy] [current music: Something in the Night] [random quote: Nothing is forgotten or forgiven when it's your last time around] ~*~ 2002-06-17 - 11:46 p.m. Finally got my copy of Origin #6 [and my dollar. Thanks, Pete!], and I've been having some thoughts. Not many, and not really profound thoughts, but thoughts nevertheless... Consider this your spoiler warning and your spoiler space. Turn back now if you don't want to know. S P O I L I E S Okay, so Logan kills Rose. Claws through the chest. Familiar much? I don't know how much continuity the movieverse and the comicverse are sharing, but goddammit, don't take away that special moment for Logan and Rogue by having it be an echo of something that happened earlier. Though, on the other hand, Rose was apparently the "love of his life", at least up until that point, so... draw your own conclusions on the similarity of the scenario. Logan killing the women he loves seems to be something of a theme. I like that Rogue is so far the only survivor of this little exercise in melodrama. It means they're *meant to be together.* Yeah, I'm a shipper. I can turn any wacky occurrence into support for my chosen 'ship. *G* I would like confirmation that Dog is really Sabretooth, though I think we're supposed to think that. If so, it's interesting how Wolverine ends up with Sabretooth's birthname, and Sabretooth ends up as someone completely different. Devil Doll has some interesting thoughts on the incorporation of the Origin stuff into the current Wolverine storyline. 'Ware spoilers for Wolverine #176 before you click, though. ~victoria ~*~ 2002-06-17 - 5:22 p.m. Livia has issued The Ray Bradbury Title Challenge as a follow up to the highly successful X-Title Challenge, and well, since i've been enthusing about my favorite ever short story, All Summer in a Day by Ray Bradbury, this kinda demanded to be written. It's very wanky and experimental in style sort of, so the places where there's no punctuation and it seems like there should be? That's deliberate. It's kind of self-indulgent navel-gazing, and heavy-handed with the symbolism to boot, but... italics indicate memories All Summer In a Day Clark lay in the grass. This was it, the end of life as he knew it. He watched from a distance as the trucks rolled away from the farm. He knew he should be there, be the pillar of strength for his mother, but he wanted his freedom, his childhood, to last just a few moments longer. Everything Jonathan had worked for -- gone, lost in the weakness of what had been his greatest strength. His heart had given out one morning as he'd been working in the fields. The sun glinted off the fields, giving everything a greenish gold glaze. Clark tried to soak it all in. He closed his eyes and remembered First kiss with Chloe in the barn in eight grade. Staring at Lana through the telescope night after night, dreaming of something he could never have, and didn't want once he'd gotten it. Saving Lex on the riverbank. Starting the dance of lies and half-truths that led to this day. Playing Nintendo with Pete. Unmasking meteor mutants. Chloe's smile lighting up the room. Fencing with Lex after Lex's decision to stay in Smallville. Lex's kiss sending lightning along his veins, the feel of his scalp cool and slick under Clark's hands. Tentative fumblings on the old couch in the bar, followed up with Lex's more practiced hands at the Castle, away from the prying eyes of parents and friends. His hand drifted to his crotch, and his eyes snapped open. He wasn't going to lie here and jerk-off while the bank foreclosed on his house, his future, his family. But the thought was oh-so-appealing. One last hurrah, let his childhood go out with a bang, and he could hear Lex groaning at the pun. Lex. His mother had demanded his word that he wouldn't call Lex back to save them from this. He knew -- they both knew -- that Lex would save the farm, save the family, but it would be contrary to Jonathan's wishes, and Martha at least wanted to see her husband's wishes fulfilled, even at the expense of her home, and her son's. Clark didn't, couldn't understand it. And he'd said so, time and again over the past week. At the hospital. The funeral parlor. The church and the graveyard. This morning he'd left the house before they could have the conversation again. Lex would be only too happy to save the farm, Mom. Lex would be only too happy to spite his father, she would say. Isn't that what Dad would have wanted, to finally get back at Lionel Luthor through his only son? She would purse her lips and turn away, eyes filled with tears and he knew he was right, but she'd promised and he'd promised and a Kent never breaks his word, son. He could hear his father's voice. Fathers and sons were what it all came down to, and his mother simply couldn't understand that. So Clark lay in the grass, awaiting the end of the summer of his life, end Damn, I've been writing today. Go me! *g* ~victoria link ~*~ 2002-06-17 - 1:15 p.m. I have no idea what I'm going to do with this. It came to me on the train this morning, possibly the result of one too many late night viewings of Breakfast at Tiffany's coupled with the age-old, "Make her/him hate you" trope I most recently saw in Moulin Rouge. I have no idea what comes before, though I'm fairly sure I know what comes after. Unless... DD - Full Moon Meetings? Could this be an ending there, or do you want that in moonlight? I'm just a sucker for big emotional scenes in the rain. What can I say? I like the pathetic fallacy. Anyhow, I don't know quite where this will turn up, but I'm sure it will eventually. Liar's Poker They faced each other in the rain. "I can't do this anymore, kid. You deserve better. You always have." "Bullshit." "Kid--" "I'm not a kid anymore, Logan. I'm a woman. And I'm in love with you. Dammit, can't you see that?" He closed his eyes, turned away from her.
"Or don't you want to see it?" she taunted, running her hands over her body, the light summer dress she wore clinging to every curve, leaving nothing to his imagination. Not that he needed imagination. His hands and lips had mapped every curve and hollow -- and then he'd spent nights on the road reliving in technicolor detail every inch of her body. He turned back. "Marie. I see it." <-If you only knew...-> "You're young. You're beautiful." She talked over him, not letting him finish. "I can't touch or be touched. Ever. I'm learning to live with that. I'm broken." She was almost sobbing and he could feel his resolve wavering. "You're not broken," he growled, grabbing her shoulders and shaking her. "I'm the one who's broken, who can never be fixed. You could have anyone you wanted. Any man would be proud to have you." "But I want you," she whispered, and while she might try to pass it off as the rain, he knew those were tears streaming down her face. "Don't you see? Alone, we're broken. Together, we're whole." He closed his eyes again, and opened them when he felt her press herself against him. Against his will, his body responded. "Tell me you don't love me," she challenged. "Look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me, and I'll walk away." He looked down at her, his eyes sliding away to focus on the trees behind her. "I don't love you," he choked out, his hands tightening on her shoulders. She reached up and grabbed his chin, forcing him to meet her gaze. "Liar," she said tenderly, and he was lost. *** Any ideas on what to do with this? ~victoria
~*~ 2002-06-17 - 10:52 a.m. My turn to play the quotes game. Jane St Clair asked for memorable fanfic quotes. These are my favorites - the ones I can quote off the top of my head in most cases (well, except for the last one, which is too long to quote word for word - it's a scene not a line, but the rest - I've included a little extra for context in a couple of cases, but for the most part, it's the lines themselves I remember, and the stories that go with them): The lid was hammered on. Two inches of breathing space above him. Scarcely enough length for him to stretch out. Bare wooden boards underneath him. /Probably good for my back,/ he thought crazily. He tried not to hyperventilate, knowing his air supply was severely limited and precious, but panic rushed over him as he felt the box being lifted. He clawed at the lid, clawed until he felt his fingernails break and the blood start to flow. Because coming is dying, and even if it is awkward and paid for and brief it is liberation from life." luna vudu, All Is Full of Love - West Wing 6. Faith. "My name is Marie." I said, rising slowly to my feet, burning my eyes into theirs as my hand lifts the gun toward them. "And I remember." He wasn't worried about the colors. And then his mouth touched her breast. Over her shirt, over all the layers that protected the world from her. His mouth was hot compared to her rain soaked shirt and she heard the rain and herself moaning so loudly that the echo of it whistled in her ears. She could feel his mouth moving, even through the layers of t-shirt and bra, and then his teeth gently tested her flesh and she pushed against his restraining hands so hard that the metal under her dented, just slightly. You know I would copy this whole story if I could. I think not one word more of L/R fanfic ever needed to be written after "Safety in Numbers", though that didn't stop me from contributing many, many words of my own. God I love that fic. Now that I've totally depressed myself, what with the "Ain't No Sunshine" and "Hallelujah" on repeat... I need something happy or I'm gonna start sniffling... ~victoria link ~*~ 2002-06-16 - 9:33 p.m. So I read The Character of Rain by Amélie Nothomb on my train ride Friday evening. It's short - only 132 pages, and small pages at that. But it's beautifully written (translated?), the story of a young girl up until her third birthday. She reminds me of Devil Doll, actually, personality-wise. And I mean that in a *good* way, DD. The story really seems to me to get into the head of a 2 1/2 year old - she still thinks she's the center of the universe, that her wish makes things happen, and well, Nothomb pulls it off amazingly well. It's hard to choose just one passage to quote- there are lovely descriptions of many things, but this one, I think is my favorite: To the endless list of unanswerable questions must be added the following: why is it that well-intentioned parents, not content merely to foist an idea onto their child, also convince themselves that it was the child's idea in the first place? Definitely a book worth picking up. I'm still wavering on the whole translation thing, though. Anyone out there who can read two languages find that the translation sometimes doesn't match in tone or meaning? I mean, that maybe the words are right, but the meaning they convey isn't the same, is somehow intranslatable? Since my own foreign language skills consist of asking for beer and the bathroom in Italian and Spanish, I'm not exactly one to know these things, but as I said last night, I always wonder, because it's bad enough to have the story filtered through the narrator sometimes. To have another hand - the translator - muddying the waters just obscures the story that much more. Maybe. I'm not sure. Whee! Mike Piazza actually threw out a runner! Woohoo! ~victoria link ~*~ 2002-06-16 - 1:20 p.m. Happy Father's Day! Hope everyone has a good one. ~victoria ~*~ 2002-06-16 - 1:25 a.m. This is a good thing. And a rare thing, since I hardly ever rent videos - DVDs now - anymore. But round about 6pm or so, I said to my dad, "Let's got to Blockbuster." So we got in the car ['cause you can't go *anywhere* in the damned county without a car, and I don't like that. I'm used to walking to the corner, and there's Blockbuster, and the Chinese restaurant and Mickey D's and Associated. So having to get in the car to do everything pisses me off. Eh. I'm a city girl. I admit it.] and went to Blockbuster. And came home with Moulin Rouge [and how funny, I can't type "Rouge" - I keep typing Rogue. *g*], Ocean's 11 and Memento. We watched Moulin Rouge first. Dad liked it. I liked it, with reservations. Way, *way* too self-conscious with the "Look! We're arty!" camerawork, especially at the beginning. Look, if there's dancing in a movie - real, choreographed dancing and not just bodies writhing on a dancefloor in a club - I want to see it. I want to watch the feet and the bodies and the faces, and I think it should be filmed the way Fred Astaire and Gene Kelly and Cyd Charisse and Leslie Caron were filmed, not this slow-motion, sped-up, fancy schmancy crapple. Um, that's my main complaint. The love story was well-done and touching. It's a straightforward, unironic romance, and they handled that well, though some of the winking and nodding was annoying in other parts. I don't think you can play this type of story with a wink and a nod. I can't explain it better than that. I just think there was a little too much self-congratulation on the part of the director, a little too much, "We're so pomo! Check us out! Aren't we clever?" My other reservation is Nicole Kidman's singing. She seems to have a nice voice, but not at all powerful, and she had problems enunciating. I couldn't understand her when she sang sometimes. Ewan was... god, Ewan... Too lovable for words. His singing was much better than I expected. And such a woobie... Oh, I loved him. I've always been a sucker for "Your Song" and its use was perfect. I've always thought that a musical with current pop songs would be fun, and it was. It was the best use of "Like a Virgin" ever. And the Tango "Roxanne" was wonderful. Plus, narcoleptic Argentine. How could I not dig on that? *g* And Jim Broadbent kicked ass. So happy he won an Oscar, even if it wasn't for this role. So two thumbs up, from me and Dad, though I'm kinda glad I didn't pay $10 to see it. As for Ocean's 11 - again, I liked it, with reservations. It was light, fluffy and fun. You can't beat a good heist movie, George Clooney is hot, and well, Carl Reiner *and* Don Cheadle... how fun is *that*? 'Cause I love me some Don Cheadle. Brad Pitt was good, though with his doctor wig on, he reminded me a little too much of Rob Lowe, which was... odd. I like Rob Lowe. He's totally made me believe he can actually act with West Wing and mostly erased my bad '80s memories of him [not to mention his duet with Snow White]. Matt Damon... there seemed like there should have been more to his character. I get the whole 11 thing, but there were too many of them, and I really didn't feel like any of them had any depth. Which, for me, makes a movie less enjoyable. I also saw absolutely no reason for Julia Roberts to go back to George Clooney, other than that he's George Clooney and he was damn fine-looking in his tuxedo. I mean, I get why she leaves the other guy, but I didn't *believe* she and George had been in love and been married. On the other hand, George had the swagger going, and you know I melt for the swagger, and he didn't do much head-bobbing, which is always a plus. He's a big head-bobber, and it gets annoying sometimes. So, it wasn't as good as say, The Thomas Crowne Affair [a movie I might just have to purchase], but it was a fun two hours. Another two thumbs up on it. I'm almost tempted to pick up the Moulin Rouge soundtrack, but I'm not quite sold... Hmmm... We're saving Memento for tomorrow night when we're alert enough to pay attention. I read The Character of Rain yesterday on the trainride out here, but I'll talk about it tomorrow, I guess. Beautifully written little book. Or translated. I'm always chary of translations, but the prose was beautiful, so I'm not going to complain too much about not knowing if that's what the writer was really saying. I may have to check out more Amelie Nothomb. Add in the 8-0 Mets' victory over the Yankees and the punkass bitch Clemens, and how I loved that both Estes and Piazza went yard against him, and it was a good day. G'night! ~victoria link ~*~ 2002-06-15 - 2:57 p.m. Wheee! Estes takes Clemens downtown!!! That is all. ~victoria ~*~
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