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04.18.03 - 2:14 p.m.
The Dirty Dozen
...And Gilmore Girls makes 12.
Fandoms I've finished stories in, that is.
X-Men Movieverse, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Homicide: Life on the Street, Smallville, The West Wing, Star Wars: Attack of the Clones, Lord of the Rings, Earthsea, Firefly, and Harry Potter, and now, Gilmore Girls.
Wee Rory snippet that needs major revision up in the diary LJ. Psst...Vic... this is the diary.
::shakes head::
Still befuddled by indices. This shouldn't be this hard. But I'm disorganized, and all the little nitty details, like, oh, links, are getting me down.
But I will prevail. Yes.
~victoria
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[current mood: determined]
[current music: Baba O'Riley - The Who]
[random quote: don't cry, don't raise your eyes, it's only teenage wasteland]
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04.18.03 - 9:46 a.m.
Feeling lucky, punk?
I should NOT be in a Kill! Crush! Destroy! mood. I should be ruminating on sacrifice and redemption and all sorts of other things we talk about endlessly in fandom but you know, for real. Regardless of any one set of beliefs.
But no.
I had three MORONS sitting outside my window last night, drunk and talking about some girl.
Until THREE AM.
Of course, that just meant I stayed up and did stuff, but grrr... Have some freaking consideration for your poor neighbors who live on the first floor, assholes!
Then this morning... the bus driver seemed not to grasp that "green means go" and so we sat at a couple of lights through two reds. I don't mean at the stop, either.
Dude, reading your personal papers while driving the bus? Not gonna make your passengers feel safe, either.
Plus work this week has actually been busy, and with stuff I can't do at my desk (copying, massive collating, etc.), they're taking away the two cubes behind me again and giving them to people, so I have to clean those out today.
PLus, I haven't had a weekend at home to myself in AGES and it's driving me bugfuck, because there's stuff I need to do in my apartment and it's not getting done.
Grrr...
I'm just not in a mood to be fucked with today.
I'm really not.
~victoria
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[current mood: grrr...]
[current music: Photograph - Def Leppard]
[random quote: \"I'm an extraordinary bitching pain in the ass.\" Beau Felton, Homicide: Life on the Street]
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04.17.03 - 10:39 a.m.
Strong enough for a man...
Random "Magic Bullet" musings in the LJ. Spoilery, of course.
So last night was spent coding, except for the hour break I took to watch Angel and the fifteen minutes in which I showered.
Of course, because I'm determined to get this all done, and am focusing on it exclusively, I'm having Story Ideas.
Which is funny, 'cause a week ago I was feeling fresh out. Totally fallow.
So just so I don't lose them in my mad dash to get the Remix/Redux archive up, I'm listing them here. Because I think they're all genuinely viable short fic ideas, all inspired by Jae Gecko's "I've got a secret" challenge:
+ Rory Gilmore on her parents
+ Sirius/Remus porn (yes, I think I've figured out a way to write some, finally. Sigh. And no, nothing to do with Remus being a werewolf and Sirius finding out. I have difficulty with conceptualizing MWPP fic - writing it, I mean. No problem with reading it.)
+ Harry Potter on his parents
+ Eomer. On being king. On his sister. On what he wanted and didn't want and how it all turned out backwards.
+Oh! And the Crazy River Mal/Kaylee snippet I don't know what to do with. 'cause River's got all sorts of secrets...
And dude, I'm looking at these ideas and none of them is "I am in love with/have a crush on/will die if I don't get with" someone ideas.
I mean, this is me, we're talking about, so romance plays a part in all of them, sort of, but I'm not doing, "Gimli's secret is he's in love with Legolas and is worried that his love is unrequited." Because -dude- everybody knows that, and it's the plot of every L/G fic ever.
Well, maybe that's an exaggeration, but you know what I mean.
Instead, maybe I should write about how he wants to open an office supply store in Vegas after the war is over... Oh wait, that's Buffy and Giles. *g*
I'm also wondering about canonical secrets and maybe playing with them.
I really shouldn't work on any writing until I've got the indices done, though. That's kind of my goal today.
Gah.
~victoria
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[current mood: busy]
[current music: Dance the Night Away - Van Halen]
[random quote: \"He's a misanthropic money whore. That's why I love him.\" Karen, Will & Grace]
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04.16.03 - 9:46 a.m.
Xander was not a happy laptop last night
Okay, last night I spent almost 6 hours with my laptop, attmepting to code stories and put together a spreadsheet so I could easily create the indices for the Remix...Redux, but my laptop?
Freaking wonky as all hell.
I had to reboot THREE TIMES.
Do you know how many stories got coded?
Six.
I think my laptop - named Xander - was irate at what happened to his namesake on Buffy last night.
I'm just saying.
It was either that or my period.
Does anyone else have that experience, that electronic things go wonky on them while they have their period? 'Cause it's happened to me often enough for me to believe there's a correlation.
So, the revised timetable for the archive to go up is Friday evening. That's the plan, anyway. Depending on how the laptop behaves tonight and tomorrow.
That includes the fill-in stories (and thank god for lovely people who volunteer to help out. Big kisses and hugs to you all).
Also, so you know, the people who didn't include a cute "The Drum'n'Bass Remix" subtitle have one, courtesy of my lame brain. Also, if you didn't provide a summary, I did. So if you want either of those things to bear your own personal stamp instead of my grubby fingerprints, let me know.
Kneejerk reactions to last night's Buffy (and a wee bit on Smallville) are up in the LJ.
I'm gonna go back to my spreadsheets. At least they *look* like work.
~victoria
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[current mood: irritable]
[current music: All the Young Dudes - Mott the Hoople]
[random quote: I hear the roar of the big machine cold metal and methedrine love lost fire at will dumdum bullets and shoot to kill]
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04.15.03 - 1:38 p.m.
does giddy caffeinated dance of productivity, not to be confused with drunken dance of fertility
2300 words of fill-in Remix fic written this morning.
Woohoo!
And the great thing? I don't even think it sucks.
It helps that I like the original story, though I felt it had... flaws, which I graciously took it upon myself to remedy.
::snicker::
It's off in the betas' hands now.
Now if the last two folks who haven't responded would just come through in the clutch, I'd be a happy, happy camper.
However, being me, I am preparing for the necessity of having to have two more fill-ins written. Because that's the kinda gal I am.
Also, highly giddy and caffeinated.
But still... this brings the total of recently finished fic/fic in beta up to six:
*Sublimation - finished and posted
*Remix Fic 1 - finished and soon to be posted
*Remix Fic 2 - finished and in the hands of the betas (and to be posted shortly thereafter, I hope)
*Nothing Like the Sun - finished and in the hands of the betas
*Liar's Poker - finished and in the hands of the betas
*Watchfic - finished and in the hands of the betas
I feel all productive.
::does giddy, caffeinated dance of productivity, not to be confused with drunken dance of fertility, which leads to scary possibilities::
~victoria
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[current mood: giddy, productive]
[current music: Rosalita (Come Out Tonight) - Bruce]
[random quote: Princess Di is wearing a new dress...]
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04.14.03 - 2:45 p.m.
I make my own fun
From today's additions to Nothing Like the Sun:
"That was low, Granger, even for you," he said, his voice a sandpaper rasp.
The apology formed unconsciously, and she bit it back. "At least I let you come first."
That surprised a bark of laughter out of him. “Yes, yes, you did. You’ll pardon me if I don’t thank you for it.”
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Sorry. I can't help it. I'm so amused by their acerbic banter.
Considering how little feedback Sublimation has gotten (possibly the Least. Feedback. Ever. even though it's barely 24 hours since I posted it), I'm not having high expectations for anything that's not XMM or SV, and considering I haven't written SV in months.... yeah.
But Draco and Hermione amuse me terribly. I wonder if they can be old moviefied. I mean, Ron/Hermione for The Thin Man, sure, but maybe It Happened One Night for Draco and Hermione... Draco as the spoiled rich brat running away from his responsibilites and Hermione as the old school nemesis who finds him and ends up stuck traveling cross-country with him via muggle transportation.
That may just have possiblities.
Hmmm...
Over in the LJ, requests for sequels.... how do writers feel about that? How do readers feel about it? How do *you* feel about it?
~victoria
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[current mood: amused at my own witticisms]
[current music: Instant Karma - John Lennon]
[random quote: Well we all shine on like the moon and the stars and the sun]
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04.14.03 - 10:21 a.m.
I was Harry Potter *and* Wee!Clark Kent
So last night I read two Snapefics, both by the same author, both of which I liked, but... (The only reason I don't include links here is because, uh, I kinda don't have 'em. They're on the laptop. From memory, both were by Josan. One was called "Snape and the Crup," and the other was "Not How It Should Be", I think, though god help me, I can't tell you which was which, as a crup featured in both stories.)
But.
Both contained pairings - Snape pairings - that kinda sorta squick me.
The first one, well, the focus was totally not the romance - the romance in fact, felt tacked on and could have been anyone (in my head, it should have been Remus, lost without Sirius and seeking comfort) but the point is, it wasn't really a detriment to the story, which would have been fine ending before the romantical part ever happened.
The second was a really fabulous look at a post-war wizarding world totally changed by the war. Totally. Changed.
And how Snape (and others) were dealing with that change, and that really, really worked for me. There were some lovely character notes (Lupin owning a secondhand record shop. Hee! So totally fits my picture of him), and the whole idea - the plot - was just ingenius.
Unfortunately, it's a Snape/Harry fic.
I Just Don't Buy Snape/Harry.
And the unfortunate reference at one point to Snape's pubes didn't help, either. The word 'pubes'? Is not of The Sexy.
It reminds me of sniggering 12yo boys.
Anyhow, Snape/Harry doesn't work for me for myriad reasons, only one or two of which have to do with the student/teacher thing (not applicable here) and the Snape Is a Big Mean Bully to Harry (semi-applicable here, but overcome fairly organically). My problem is... I believe Snape is in love with Lily. Or was, anyway. He doesn't strike me as the kind of man who would transfer those affections to her son. And god knows, not a son who's the spitting image of James Potter, the man Lily loved who wasn't him (Snape).
So, yeah.
That was a big problem for me. I'm still wrestling with whether or not I liked the fic. I mean, like I said, I really liked the big A plot, but the romance arc ...
If you like Snape/Harry, you'll dig the fic even more, I guess. It was well-written with a few minor grammatical errors, and I believed most of Snape's character arc. Harry was more of a cipher, for reasons I won't go into here so as not to spoil the story. Amazingly, given the events of the story, I could believe Harry falling for Snape. Just not... vice versa.
So I have to figure out if I'm going to put these on the recs page. The first one, probably. The second... I'm still trying to figure it out. Because honestly, I've recced Harry/Draco fic, and that's a pairing I don't really believe, either, though Zahra (and one or two others) makes me feel it on occasion, at least for the space of a few thousand words.
And I probably shouldn't read Snapefic before bed, because last night I had a HP/SV crossover dream, in which I met up with this guy, and we had this kind of date. But it was one of those where you're not quite sure if you're still just friends or you're going to take it to the romantic place, so the hello kiss was sort of awkward and strange.
Then we went to have pancakes with Maveness and my sister, and all of a sudden, I was still me, but I was also Harry Potter, except a grown up Harry Potter who'd never made it to Hogwarts, and so had spent his life (he/we were in our early 30s. I think he was a doctor. I wasn't) making the occasional odd thing happen, but totally unaware of who or what he was.
Which makes me totally want to read a fic where that happens.
Anyone? Recs?
Back to the dream- I suddenly wake up, in the dream, and I'm wee!Clark Kent, and I tell Jonathan about this dream where I was Harry Potter who never went to Hogwarts.
And Jonathan reassures me that it was just a dream, and then he pours milk over my head and tells me to go take a shower, I'm going to be late for school.
Then I woke up for real.
Note to self: No Snapefic before bed anymore.
In other news, updated the site last night, adding Surrendering to Temptation, the XMM drabble, and Sublimation, the Aragorn's a Big Numenorean Slut fic.
~victoria
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[current mood: amused]
[current music: Love In An Elevator - Aerosmith]
[random quote: I was Genghis Khan, I was Aristophanes, I was a guy named Urgh in 15000 BC...]
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04.13.03 - 3:59 p.m.
Go Mom!
I'm finding it really irritating that I can't search LJ for the entry I'm looking for. I know sometime in September or October of last year I discussed "Tales of Earthsea" and "The Other Wind," and I'm fairly certain I did it in LJ because of the spoiler factor, and because I remember discussing with someone the big shift in emphasis from the first three books to the last.
Because my dad is reading them now, and it's all I can do not to start pelting him with questions, but it's too early - he's just finished "Tombs of Atuan" (my favorite in the series and one of my very favorite books of all time). In the middle of it he was like, "So do Tenar and Ged get together?"
Hee!
The UST in that book is so freaking palpable it's *scary*. I mean, considering that it's supposed to be impossible...
And whee! Found the entry - it's here, so I don't have to reinvent the wheel.
Anyhow, even when my father is finished with all six books, he's not really one for those sorts of discussions - he's very much a face-value type reader. Which isn't a bad thing to be (and probably saves him from angsting about his favorite characters when they get into bad situations), but isn't really helpful to me.
I mean, yesterday, while watching CoS, I mentioned how many people felt the HP books were anti-Christian (which is a load of hogwash, iffen you ask me) and have had them banned in various places, and there are other people who view the HP books as a Christian allegory (though not, perhaps, as obvious a one as Narnia) (and if anyone can point me at one of these readings, I'd find it very interesting. I know someone mentioned it on LJ recently, something about Hagrid and a rooster and denial - but god knows I can't remember whose LJ I saw it in).
And my mother, god bless her, got all cranky. "They're books! You either enjoy them or you don't! Banning books is the stupidest thing I ever heard of!"
Go Mom!
(You must remember, my parents are both fairly devout and practicing Catholics.)
And speaking of Narnia reminds me of CS Lewis which reminds me of Tolkien which is a very roundabout way of getting to the point, which is, the final draft of Sublimation is up in the LJ. So happy it's done. Meh. I couldn't stand looking at it anymore.
Feedback of all stripes is highly appreciated.
I think I want cookies now, as I turn back to Hermione and Draco.
~victoria
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[current mood: amused]
[current music: golf in the background on television]
[random quote: Hypocrisy is an homage that vice renders to virtue. ~de la Rochefoucauld]
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